Today..

Today...hari ni...
aku mengisytiharkan diri untuk menerima seorang anak angkat..
risq jgn jeles ye..
sbb mak berharap sangat akan membuatnya anak angkat in the real sense..
tapi risau gak sebab aku ni bukan org yang penyabar..
kalau naik angin satu badan..
dari hujung kampung pun boleh dengar suara yang besar dan kuat..
ohh kadang kadang malu gak...
tapi itulah rasanya senjata yang ada dalam kemampuan untuk mengawal keadaan..
wow.. teringat muyah pun terkejut tgk maknya menjerit... dalam kelas..
awak semua ni sombong...
maka melayang le pemadam atau buku atau apa saje yang ada berdekatan...
pastu malu gak nak gi kutip..
dalam hati adale anak muridku yang baik hati tolong gi kutip barang2 yang melayang tadi..
eeee.. jahat tau cikgu ni....
kadang terjumpa anak murid apabila dah besar2..
segan pula rasanye..
ingat perbuatan sebegitu..
tapi dalam keadaan dan kesabaran tercabar..
semua boleh lupa..
nasib baik tak membunuh je..
ohhhhh... memang mencabar sungguh...
minta mahap ye anak muridku ...sekiranya tersempak
dengan angin yang sebegitu..
tapi hari ni.. nekad seboleh mungkin nak praktikkan
apa yang tersemat di dalam kalbu..
seorang murid yang pada anggapan ku
memerlukan bimbinganku ..
sekiranya aku gagal sekurang2nya aku telah berusaha..
aku dilantikkan khalifah kepada diriku..
kepada orang di kelilingku..
dengan seberapa kudrat yang ada akan ku bimbingnya..
akan ku pimpin tangannya ke jalan yang lebih baik
mengikut norma masyarakat.. InsyaAllah..
pada pandangan ku dia mungkin dah mula tersesat..
hanya aku berharap aku punyai kekuatan..
jangan nanti aku dipersoalkan tentang sumbanganku kepada kemakmuran umat..
mungkin juga jauh di sudut hatiku aku ingin mencari peluang dan tempat untuk bermanja..
aku berharap sangat dia akan menerimaku seadanya..
mungkin aku tidak segagah yang lain..
mungkin aku tidak menawan seperti yang lain..
kekadang mereka ini lebih tertarik kepada yang menawan..
tapi aku akan berusaha untuk menjadi menawan di mata mereka..
aku ingin mencari ruang untuk mencurah bakti..
aku ingin bekerja..dan memberi sumbangan..
aku tidak mahu hadir di hadapan mereka
kerana aku diberikan keistimewaan pada 25 hb..
sebenarnya aku di sana mungkin terasa keseorangan..
aku tidak mahu menaiki bas sekolah ..
atau apa2 jua jenis kenderaan yang lain..
aku tidak mahu naik keretapi..
aku ingin berada di hadapan mereka sebagai a wholesome..
aku cukup tidak selesa menaiki apa2 jenis kenderaanpun..
aku percaya ramai orang yang tidak mahu menaiki apa2 jenis kenderaanpun..
tapi apabila keadaan memerlukan kita untuk menaiki kenderaan ..
sekiranya kita berjalan kaki..
maka kita akan tertinggal..
akan keseorangan..
adakah sesiapa yang ingin menumpangkan diri ini menaiki kenderaannya????
Nekadku..
aku akan cuba menggunakan segala ilmu walaupun sedikit
yang pernah diperolehi semasa berkursus 14 minggu dulu..
untuk melaksanakan tugas ini..
Terima kasih pensyarah IPPM ..En Nordin, En.Mat Isa..,Tn Hj Mustapha.
Dr Yasmin, En Israfi and last not least my beloved pakar rujuk En Mustafa b. Abdul Aziz...
Semoga dia menerima ku dan semoga tugas ku ini akan dipermudahkanNya..
mudahan tidak tersasar niat...
dan semoga dapatku menyelamat seorang umat ...
Amin....

Ptk:Generik; sukatan

Sukatan:

SUKATAN PEPERIKSAAN PENILAIAN TAHAP KECEKAPAN
KERTAS 702/01 : BAHAGIAN I (KOMPETENSI UMUM) DG41 – TK2
1. Aspek Kompetensi Teras
1.1 Pengurusan Personel Perkhidmatan Awam
1.1.1 Pengetahuan tentang peraturan dan proses urusan yang berkaitan dengan pengambilan, pelantikan, kenaikan pangkat, penamatan kerja, dan persaraan
1.1.2 Pengetahuan tentang peraturan dan urusan tata kelakuan dan tindakan tatatertib
1.1.3 Pengetahuan tentang tatacara pengurusan kemudahan-kemudahan pegawai awam seperti kemudahan perjalanan pertukaran dan kursus, cuti, rumah, dan bangunan pejabat kerajaan, rawatan, dan perubatan

1.2 Pemantapan Sistem Pengurusan dan Pentadbiran Organisasi di Sektor Awam
1.2.1 Pengetahuan tentang usaha-usaha penambahbaikan dan pemantapan sesebuah organisasi yang meliputi penambahbaikan sistem pengurusan dan pemantapan kompetensi di sektor awam. Aspek- aspek yang berkaitan adalah:
(i) PKPA Bil. 6/1991 : Panduan Mengenai Peningkatan Produktiviti dalam Perkhidmatan
(ii)PKPA Bil. 7/1991 : Panduan Mengenai Kumpulan Meningkat Mutu Kerja
(iii)PKPA Bil. 8/1991 : Panduan Mengenai Manual dan Prosedur Kerja dan Fail Meja
(iv)PKPA Bil.10/1991 : Panduan Mengenai Peningkatan Kualiti Perkhidmatan Kaunter
(v) PKPA Bil. 1/1992 : Panduan Pengurusan Kualiti Menyuruh (TQM) Bagi Perkhidmatan Awam

1.3 Pelaksanaan Dasar Pembangunan Negara ke Arah Pemantapan Jati Diri

1.3 Pelaksanaan Dasar Pembangunan Negara ke Arah Pemantapan Jati Diri
1.3.1 Pengetahuan tentang tujuan, rasional, konsep, pelaksanaan, dan
kesan-kesan dasar berikut yang telah dilaksanakan oleh kerajaan:
(i) Wawasan 2020
(ii) Dasar Pembangunan Nasional
(iii) Pelan Integriti Nasional (PIN)
(iv) Dasar Sosial Negara
(v) Penerapan Nilai-nilai Murni Dalam Pentadbiran

1.4 Pembangunan Diri dan Keutuhan Peribadi Melalui Amalan Penghayatan Nilai, Norma, dan Etika Murni
1.4.1 Nilai-nilai murni yang perlu diamalkan oleh kakitangan ke arah meningkatkan kualiti dan produktiviti perkhidmatan awam:
(i) Nilai-nilai utama dalam Perkhidmatan Awam
(ii) Tonggak 12
(iii) Etika Perkhidmatan Awam
(iv) Keutuhan dalam Perkhidmatan Awam

1.5 Komunikasi Berkesan ke Arah Budaya Kerja Cemerlang
1.5.1 Asas Komunikasi
(i) Definisi
(ii) Pola dan Jenis
(iii) Komunikasi Interpersonal
(iv) Halangan Komunikasi

1.5.2 Permuafakatan dalam Pendidikan
(i) PIBG
(ii) Komuniti Pendidikan
• Masyarakat setempat
• Badan Bukan Kerajaan (NGO)
• Jabatan/Agensi kerajaan
(iii) Perkongsian Bijak (Smart Partnership)

1.6 Aplikasi Asas Teknologi Maklumat
1.6.1 Kebolehan mengaplikasikan Teknologi Maklumat dan Komunikasi (ICT) dalam Pengurusan Organisasi/Kerja
(i) Perisian Pemprosesan Perkataan, contoh Microsoft Word
(ii) Perisian Hamparan Elektronik (spreadsheet), contohnya Microsoft Excel
(iii) Perisian Persembahan, contohnya Microsft PowerPoint
(iv) Perisian Pelayar Web, contohnya Internet Explorer
(v) E-mel
(vi) Pengetahuan asas peralatan komputer

2. Aspek Kompetensi Profesional
2.1 Perkembangan Sistem Pendidikan Kebangsaan dari Perspektif Sejarah
2.1.1 Sejarah pendidikan negara sebelum merdeka:
(i) Laporan Barnes (1950)
(ii) Laporan Fenn-Wu (1951)
(iii) Penyata Razak (1956)

2.1.2 Sejarah pendidikan negara selepas merdeka:
(i) Ordinan Pelajaran (1957)
(ii) Penyata Rahman Talib (1961)
(iii) Laporan Jawatankuasa Kabinet Mengkaji Pelaksanaan Dasar Pelajaran (1979)

2.2 Akta Pendidikan 1996 dan Pindaan 2002 – Bahagian 4
2.2.1 Bab I − Sistem Pendidikan Kebangsaan
2.2.2 Bab II − Pendidikan Prasekolah
2.2.3 Bab III − Pendidikan Rendah
2.2.4 Bab IV − Pendidikan Menengah

2.3 Kurikulum Pendidikan Kebangsaan
2.3.1 Falsafah Pendidikan Kebangsaan
2.3.2 KBSR dan KBSM
2.3.3 Prasekolah

2.4 Sistem dan Struktur Pengurusan Pendidikan
2.4.1 Peranan Bahagian dan Jabatan Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia
2.4.2 Peranan Pejabat Pelajaran Gabungan (PPG)/Pejabat Pelajaran Daerah (PPD) dan Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri, cawangan-cawangan Bahagian Kementerian Pelajaran di negeri (contoh: Jemaah Nazir Sekolah, Pusat Sumber Pendidikan Negeri (PSPN), Pusat Kegiatan Guru (PKG)

2.5 Pengurusan Sekolah
2.5.1 Pengurusan Kurikulum
2.5.2 Pengurusan Kokurikulum
2.5.6 Pengurusan Hal Ehwal Murid
2.5.7 Pengurusan Pentadbiran Sekolah

2.6 Nilai dan Sikap
2.6.1 Pengetahuan dan pengalaman nilai dan sikap dalam Etika Profesion Perguruan
(i) Tanggungjawab terhadap pelajar
(ii) Tanggungjawab terhadap ibu bapa
(iii) Tanggungjawab terhadap masyarakat dan negara
(iv) Tanggungjawab terhadap rakan sejawat dan profesion perguruan

2.7 Isu-isu Semasa dalam Pendidikan
2.7.1 Perkembangan semasa dalam pendidikan:
(i) Pengajaran dan Pembelajaran Sains dan Matematik Dalam Bahasa Inggeris (PPSMI)
(ii) Dasar 60:40
(iii) Disiplin murid
(iv) Penguasaan 3M (Membaca, Menulis, Mengira)
(v) Memperkasa Sekolah Kebangsaan

Hargailah....

hargailah ia sebelum ianya hilang
sihat sebelum sakit..
kaya sebelum miskin..
senang sebelum susah...

kekadang banyak benda
we just take for granted..
atau dalam bahasa ..
ambil tak endah ..
buat tak peduli..
tidak menghargai...
hanya apabila ianya hilang
dari pegangan atau pandangan
baru menggelabah...
pada masa itu mungkin ianya tidak akan datang balik..
atau ianya sudah terlambat..
atau ianya sudah basi..
mungkin juga keadaan sudah berubah..
banyak perkara yang kita ambil mudah sebenarnya..
mungkin kita beranggapan ianya akan kekal dalam gengganman kita..
tanpa kita sedari sebenarnya tidak ada benda yang kekal dalam dunia ini...
teringat kisah kawan..
alkisah..
berkawan dengan jejaka selama beberapa tahun..
semakin tahun usia semakin meningkat..
menunggu jejaka masuk meminang ..
tak tiba2..
terselamat dia.. mungkin tuhan sayang dia..
dia seorang yang sangat baik..
konon sijejaka nak merajuk dan ditinggalkan selama beberapa ketika..
tanpa khabar berita..
maka kawan ni pun beranggapan yang jejaka ini dah putus hubungan..
maka dia pun terus melangkah dalam dunia yang agak kelam..
terjumpa le dia dengan seorang
yang dapat membuka hatinya
untuk menerima kasih seorang jejaka lain..
bertujuan asalnya untuk melupakan kekasih lamanya..
tapi kejujuran orang baru dan kesungguhannya..
lalu lamarannya diterima..
kekasih lama mula menggelabah...
tapi sudah terlambat..walau macam mana dirayu..
kasihnya sudah berubah ke kekasih baru yang nampak jujur dan ikhlas..

Justeru..
hargailah hubungan itu sebelum ia berubah arah...
jangan terlalu amik mudah...
dan selepas terlepas dari genggaman baru menggelabah..
pada masa itu..mungkin keadaan yang lain..

pepatah ada mengatakan..
kalau padi katakan padi..
jangan aku tertampi tampi..
kalau sudi katakan sudi...
kalau tidak bukan engkau seorang dalam dunia ini...( petikan John Grader)

Apabila diri disayangi..
hargailah perasaan itu..
jangan berlagak seolah jual mahal..
anda akan kehilangannya apabila dia merasa anda main2..
pada masa itu.. anda menyesal tidak maknanya..
sebab disebalik keberaniannya mengungkapkan
I luv u sayang..
terselit kegelisahan dan ketakutan..
adakah kasihnya berbalas..
kalau tidak berbalas akan jatuh terasa olehnya..
aku yang terhegeh.. sedangkan tiada respon..
maka ini akan buatkannya menggundurkan diri..
so.. sekiranya hubungan itu ingin dijalinkan..
play your part..
menjalin hubung yang baik dan harmoni
memerlukan peranan kedua2 pihak..
untuk menjaga keharmonian itu..
relationship is a game played by 2..
so play your part...
do not take things too much for granted...
cos you will lost it..unintentionally..
by then ..
even how much you regret..
nothing can be done to put it back into place..
hanya perlu menerima hakikat dengan hati yang pedih...
MAKA HARGAILAH IA.........

i am sorry..

( This entry is a special dedication)
i never realise that i mean something to you..
i am sorry if i am too blind to realise that..
well maybe cos of trauma..
i seem to have a different view of everything about you..
if i am wrong ..
please accept my thousands apologies...
i never realise that at times you need me soo much by your side..
is it because of my past experience..
that i become too indifferent towards you..

I am sorry..
but i think i have my own reason..
which i hope you will be open minded enough to understand..
and maybe as they say..
put yourself in my shoes..
cos to me..
i am not to be blamed totally about this..
you have a part in installing in me these values..
after what i have gone through..
i think anybody would feel the same as i do..
..
but let bygone be bygone..
and i hope i will be more sensitive and considerate
(which i claim myself to be)
and be more understanding towards you
after this....

Tears..

People use to say..
tears of joy..
but actually do we cry only when we are happy..
experience shows that it is not easy to shed tears..
either when u are happy..
sad..
frustrated..
sometimes tears are also shed ..
for somebody..

Today... and until now.. there is still a big lump in my throat ..
an experience today by my miserable special kid..
she was so excited to join the school acitivity..
she has to pay a sum of money..
being denied the opportunity..
because the mum or dad did not give her the money..
tears of frustration was shed as early as 7.00 in the morning..
what a pity..
i told myself ..
i would like very much to sponsour her..
just a few bulks..
i actually could feel the frustration in her..
i have gone through it..
and only god knows how difficult it is
to bear such a frsutration..
upon advise from fellow friends...
well let it be..
thats a learning process for her..
at least when she grows up..
she will realise that
not everything that she wants she can get it...
frustration teach us to be more independent..
hopefully..

At times..
tears is something that we cant stop..
it just burst like a broken dam..
or at times it is just like a leaking tap..
non stop but just a little drip bit by bit..
but which type of tears is more devastating..
a tap like or a storm like..
a storm like tears might be an expression of anger or sadness..
i remember storm like tears i shed..
at the death of my nephew..
he was only 30 and his 2 newborns age 4 months..
ohh what a heart breaking to see those innocent babies ..
an orphan without their father..
they will only recognise their father from photos..
hopefyully they will grow up to be strong and good man..

Tears, tears and tears..
can it be replaced by the scientific term h2o ...

zaryati..
only you know what tears to me mean..
tears of heart broken..
tears of frustration..
and maybe tears of rependent..
stepping into the mosque..
on a trip to shah alam
i had a kind of feeling which i cannot put in words..
just that there is a lump in my throat..
and silent tears just drip..
for what reason i have no answer..
i had my zohor and asar jamak..
but that kind of maybe distance..or emptiness..
just dont know
for all i know i feel like crying..

thank you zaryati...
you are a witness for my tears..
when i was down..
you were there to shed off my tears..
and give me the energy to get up again...
without you i would have been just like a sunken ship..
thank you once again..
and the big matter that sunken my ship..
only you know what..
well..it was only temporary...
after that i was up again and
more spirited..
but at times. still need more fuel..

whatever it is friends..
tears need to be shed at times..
just to relieve yourself..
tears are mysterious..
if scientific experiment be done ..
can they get the answer to..
what tears are..
some say...
scientist only can extract the component of h20
and maybe other minerals..
but the 1 thing that cannot be extracted are..
frustration..
beart broken..
sadness..
despair..
desperate..
empathy..
and those that has got to do with heart and soul..
soo.. who can extract these..
it is only the creator..
cos only the creator blows in those into us as human being..
as we should always be humane
and not inhumane..
cos we are created to be human..

Well..
readers..
just point to ponder..
adieus...

My Endless Love

Dedicated to You...

You....

Some people may call you as Mr Romeo..
but to me i think you are not legible to be called Mr Romeo..
Mr Romeo dies for his Miss Juliet..
but you...

do things which are in contrary to that of Mr Romeo..
so because of that are you entitle for that Mr Romeo????
to me you do not deserve the nickname Mr Romeo..

JUST YESTERDAY
i was your baby..
you told me YOU love me..
you told me i mean everything for you..
you would like to be with me until the end of time..

BUT TODAY
you go off..
you tell me ..
we are not meant for each other..
it was a mistake choosing you as my beloved..
there is no chemistry between us..

AFTER THAT...
you keep quiet..
you do not want to have anything to do with me..
you desserted me..
you isolated yourself from me....
you keep silent as tho we are in a different planet..

DO YOU KNOW..
that when you left me...
i was in misery...
i collapsed...
the whole world is upside down..
i just can't help ..
i keep blaming myself..
i feel that i am hopeless..
i am the most unfortunate ...

AND YOU..
feels so great..
put your head up high..
and start browsing around proudly..
without even care to see how my well being is..

YOU SHOULD REALISE....
that by doing so..
you are letting me down...

WHY...
do you have to do this..
did you give me hope..
if you are doubtful of yourself...

DO YOU THINK..
that by browsing around..
you will be able to find someone ...
that will fulfill your taste..

JUST
bear in mind that..
nobody is perfect..
for a new relationship that you are going to establish..
there will be some missing things..

SOO..

you cannot find 1 Miss Right..
you will have to be the MR Right yourself..
..the pain and the misery that you presented...
may one day be a present for you too..

WELL...
don't be surprise that .. after what YOU have done..
i have establish in myself some sort of immunity...
should you meet me again ..
i will not be the crying baby that you once knew..
i will be a stronger person..

Friend vs lover

Friend
True and sincere friendship knows no bound....
You cannot say you have lost a friend.. If a friendship is capable of ending ..it is because it has never exixted...
True friendship is when silence between 2 people is comfortable..
A best friend is one who can see the pain in your eyes while the rest of the world believes the smile on your face....
Silence ia a true friend who never betrays...
Later...
if ever you encounter each other...
it excites you..
from far you will scream and rush to hug and kiss..
ohhh.. long time no see..
how are you...
bla...bla...bla.. ha...ha...ha...
Ok keep in touch...

Lover
I have found some one new... This is the last contact... goodbye...Nice knowing you.. Tq for your companion.. tq for giving me a sense of happiness...
Breaking off means... do not contact me any more... we have no more relationship... just bear in mind that i have never existed in your world.. and you never existed in my world..
Darling... every minute i miss you.... every minute i want to say i love you... every second i am thinking of you... every minute i want to hold you in my arms... you existed in my dreams.. everytime i dream of you... everywhere i go.. you are by my side...
Time will heal you of your pain... for this moment what you need is time..and not me.. Take care... if we are fated to be together... well see you again one day
(After that silence.. hset off... ym off... email off no response...
Silence untill the end of the world)
Later..if ever you encounnter each other...
you will try to avoid yourself..
from far you will say..
thats my ex....

Sooo.. the morale is
would you rather be a friend or a lover...
if only lovers can be friends
but can friends be lover???
When lover can be friend
and friend can be lover..
Finally when friend lover can be your soulmate..
thats when true and real happiness is in your way..
If ever you can remain as that..
well good luck and happy browsing everyone....

Finally...
Song lyrics which can be used as your guideline in your future relationship..
(From a hubby to his wife)
You are my bread when i am hungry..
You are my shelter in trouble winds..
You are my anchor in life ever..
But most of all you are my best friend....

Deep inside me

Deep inside me..
i want to apologise to my kids..
Mak minta maaf kepada kamu Ikram, Abg Chik dan Muyah..
Muyah kamu lebih memahami kerana kita share the same feelings..
kekadang mak rasa apa yang dilalui oleh kamu bertiga
adalah kelalaian mak...
mak minta maaf banyak2..
muyah..... merely 2 more marks ..
u dont have to go thru all this..
is it because of me??????
tp surely Allah ada perancanganNya kannn...
tp mak bangga kita cepat pick up..
be yourself girl...
let us get up and be strong again...
we were born to be great...
kita tidak dilahirkan untuk gagal..
kita diamanahkan untuk menjadi khalifah di muka bumi ini..
khalifah kepada diri sendiri..
khalifah kepada orang yang dekat dengan kita..
so girl let us both get up and be some one
yang telah diamanahkan olehNya kepada kita...
mak berdoa kita tidak akan lalai lagi..
let us stay focus..
i want to contribute in a way that is within my capacity..
and you girl have such a long way to go...
I am very touch and glad that you might have found your own self...
but girl remember... stay focus...
jangan lalai lagi...
keep your words..
remember life can be as much fun without that crazy love affair...
a love affair that hurts more than hell(quote from John Grader)

Mengenang kembali apa yang terjadi pada Abg Chik and Ikram..
adakah itu kelalaian mak...
Kalau mak lalai ...
maafkan mak...
doakan kekuatan mak...
sementara mak berusaha untuk bangkit...
anak anak mak kena doakan juga kekuatan dan hidayah untuk mak..
mak tidak sempurna..
terlalu banyak mak lalai..
Syukur Abg Chik dapat melalui detk detiknya dengan lebih cemerlang..
he goes through this time...
thank you...
itu saja yang dapat mak ungkapkan..
Kepada Abg Tam...
tahniah kerana melalui saat getir itu dengan penuh kesabaran..
kena maki tiap hari dengan orang yang sangat menyakitkan hatinya..
saat saat yang sukar itu adalah kerana kelalaian mak?????...
maafkan mak...
kekadang mak rasa bersalah kepada kamu semua...
mak tidak sebaik ibu ibu yang lain...
mak akan berusaha untuk menjadi sebaik ibu yang lain..
abg tam . abg chik and muyah kena berdoa mak diampunkan dosa..
dikurangkan dugaan dan terpenting dikuatkan iman...
abg tam ingat tak semasa dalam ting 5 semasa hendak menghadapi spm
mak ingat apa yang dicakapkan abg tam..
mak ikram selalu doa Allah ampunkan dosa mak.. sebab kalau Allah tidak ampunkan dosa mak doa mak tak sampai..
Anak2ku...
marilah kita berusaha untuk menjadi sebaik bapa...

kepada yang lain...
anda lebih mengetahui apa yang terjadi dalam diri anda..
kita sesama insan harus sering ingat mengingati...
jadilah kita insan dan penghuni bumi ni yang baik2
jalankan kewajipan yang telah ditetapkan Allah kepada kita..
doakan kita dikuatkan iman dan dikurang dugaan..
kelebihan yang Allah bagi kita digunakan kepada jalan kebaikan..
jangan lalai lagi dan jangan melalaikan..
berbaik le sesama manusia
dan semoga kita diberikan petunjuk dan
keampunan olehNya...
Segala syak wasangka...
ketepikan...
bersaudarale kita sesama manusia..
semoga kita sejahtera...

Special Education: A teacher's experience

Having an experience of more than 25 years as a teacher
teaching in the main stream...
and only a merely 3 years experience in the special education...
gives me a delimma ..
am i doing the right thing when i teach my special students..

am i giving them what they can chew

or am i choking them with something they cannot digest...

en experience today makes me feel that ..
wow am i legible to teach these special kids
ohh god.... or am i only doing it for myself...
and i doing it for the sake of doing ...
teaching just because i am a teacher...
but actually i am not teaching...
i am only blattering in front of my kids..
ohhh please i dont want to be one of those
doing things just for the sake of doing things...
i want to do my outbest..
i want to contribute to their upbringing...
i seem to see the fault in others..
but maybe actually i am the one doing wrong...
is that soo??????..
what i realise today..
i am not yet considered compatible to teach these special kids..
my experience today...
Teaching english language in the special education..
the topic is a simple sentence construction...
i started off by giving them the rule of sentence construction..
every sentence consist of a subject and a predicate..
a subject is made up of a noun...
and the predicate is made up of a verb...
eg.. she sings...
and maybe a further description so the sentence becomes..
"She sings a song"...
very simple sentence
taught to a group of students who are suppose to be in form 2
goodnesss me... they cant even differentiate between a noun and a verb..
so how am i going to teach them sentence construction
they cant even recognise a verb and a noun
welll. may be i am a bit advance for them..
taking one step backward..
giving a list of words and getting the to sort it out
into words of noun and verb...
ohhhh... though a couple of them could do it..
but still the majority still blurr...
thinking of another step backward..
i question myself...
how am i going to slice it to be thinner pieces or slices...
what next should i do...
getting advise from my superior...

well...
it is not wrong to get inspired and guidance from those more expert...
acknowledging others expertise...
there are pros and copns..
while some may take it profesionally..
others might be a little scepticle...
but which ever way you see it..




it is worth a trial...

emotion

A little emo today
why?????
can't find a reason why...
just that as if there is a big lunp down my throat...
what can it be...
my kids (tho 2 adults age 23 and 19)
are going off to their campus i suppose
cannot help but ..

i will miss them......
i just cannot help it...
luv u and miss u kids...

Mereka dengan cara mereka

Mereka dengan cara mereka
siapakah mereka
tak kiralah siapa mereka tetapi cara kita tetap berbeza
cara mereka berfikir
cara mereka berhujah
cara mereka mentafsir kebebasan,..
semuanya berbeza dengan kita

konon mereka berfikir terkedepan..
konon mereka ini orang yang berfikiran panjang..
memang itu anugerah tuhan kepada mereka..
tapi bukanlah tuhan memberikan kepada kite ilmu..
dengan berilmu kita diberi lebih kewarasan untuk berfikir
dengan itu menambahkan akal kita
bukankah kita boleh dididik untuk berilmu..
justeru tuhan tidak membantu seseorang itu
melainkan dia membantu dirinya sendiri
bagaimana kita boleh membantu diri kita ialah dengan berilmu...

lantas apabila kita memberi pendapat dan berhujah
adakah itu maksud kita ni degil dan keras kepala..
adakah maksud kita ni suka melawan dengan memberi alasan
apakah susah sangat untuk memerima hujah dan alasan..
memberi hujah dan pendapat bukan alasan..
malahan itu adalah mencari kebenaran dan keadilan..
adakah itu melawan namannya..
mereka sepatutya berfikiran lebih terbuka..
dan mengubah cara mereka

manakala kita menyajikan hujah dan pendapat ....
mereka menyajikan apa????
itu cara mereka..
mereka berbangga sangat dengan apa yang mereka miliki..
adakah ianya kekal...
adakah itu harta dan aset yang mereka banggakan..
harta dunia tidak kekal ..
wahai mereka mereka yang berbangga dengan cara mereka begitu..
tak kira siapa mereka..
mereka sangat bangga dengan benda yang tidak kekal..
sebenarnya benda yang tidak kekal begitu tidak menarik perhatian kita..
itu bukan hajat atau hakikat yang kita cari..
hakikat yang kita cari ialah sesuatu yang lebih mendalam dan ikhlas..

hakikat yang kita nak dan cari ialah hakikat yang terdapat hanya di Harrods
walaupun
ianya harta tidak kekal tetapi ianya tetap berharga..
kerana ia eksklusif untuk kite sahaja....
jadi biarlah mereka dengan cara mereka
kita tetap dengan cara kita..

A Collection of Inspiring Words From A Cyber Friend

Sometimes we need to be hurt..... in order... to grow.
We must fail..... in order... to know.

We must lose...... in order... to gain.
Some lessons .....are learned best...... through pain.

Tidak salah untuk orang perempuan memulakan usaha untuk berkenalan. Orang lelaki akan sentiasa merasakan mereka yang memulakan perkenalan walaupun sebenarnya orang perempuan yang mulakan.

Sayangi semua orang di sekitar anda dan anda akan menarik sayang terhadap anda. Jika anda membenci orang, ditakuti bakal pasangan anda akan membenci anda

As we grow up we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' heart. You'll fight with your bestfriend and you'll cry because time is flying by

A bestfriend is the person who sees the pain in your eyes, when the rest of the world believes the smile on your face........

You cannot say u've lost a friend.
If a friendship is capable of ending..., it is because it never existed.."

Dua insan mudah serasi jika mempunyai pentafsiran yang sama mengenai hubungan – tahap keakraban, kebebasan, kebergantungan, pemberian, pengorbanan dan sebagainya

Daya tarikan yang sebenar berpusat di hati yang murni.
Berusahalah untuk mencuci hati anda daripada semua perasaan yang negatif terhadap semua orang di dunia ini.

When you miss someone...Look at the SKY...
Although you might not see the person there... But feel HAPPY that you TWO are under the same SKY...

Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are an option for them....

Never look for beauty, it will fade away one Day.
Never look for good skin, it will grow old one Day.
But look for a loyal heart which will miss you everyday!!!!.......................

I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.”

Smile...smile...smile my friends... Keep smiling...We shall never know all the good that a simple smile can do. No matter how hard life is... just put up your smiling face

True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable. Life without friendship is like the sky without the sun.

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.

Never tell people how to do things. Tell them what to do and they will surprise you with their ingenuity.

Tidak ada insan suci yang tidak mempunyai masa lampau dan tidak ada insan yang berdosa yang tidak mempunyai masa depan.

Kita sentiasa muda untuk melakukan dosa tetapi tidak pernah tua untuk bertaubat

Hidup tak selalunya indah tapi yang indah itu tetap hidup dalam kenangan.

Kemaafan mungkin amat berat untuk diberikan kepada orang yang pernah melukai hati kita. Tetapi hanya dengan memberi kemaafan sahajalah kita akan dapat mengubati hati yang telah terluka. Kemaafan yang diberi secara ikhlas umpama pisau bedah yang boleh membuang segala parut luka emosi

t is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get.

Kasih sayang hanya waktu berhadapan saja...., setelah berjauhan...... lalu dilupakan. Ia ibarat pepatah, "Ada aku dipandang hadap, tiada aku dipandang belakang."

Hendaklah selalu beringat dan berhati-hati, jangan terpedaya oleh sesuatu yang elok dan baik rupanya. Bak kata pepatah mengatakan, " JANGAN DITENTANG MATAHARI CONDONG, TAKUT TERTURUT JALAN TAK BERINTIS "

At the age of twenty, we don't care what the world thinks of us; at thirty, we worry about what it is thinking of us; at forty, we discover that it wasn't thinking of us at all.

Silence is a true friend who never betrays.

If you look into your own heart, and you find nothing wrong there, what is there to worry about? What is there to fear?

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

Third Attempt

this is my third attempt updating my blog...
wonder why it has been very hard to make visible what i have in my mind..
in fact there are so many things i want to share out with the world..
but i just cannot put it into words..
well...it just choke me..
each time i try to jot it down..

listening to my favourite song ...
she knows when i am lonesome..
she cries when i am sad...
she 's up in good times ..
she's down when...
how can i tell her about you...
girl please tell me what to do...
everything seems right whenever i am with you..
how can i tell her i don't miss her...
how can i tell her its you that i think of ..
every single night and day...

well...
seeing the condition in which my girl is going through..
i know it is a very tough time for her..
i wish there is something that i can do to lighten what she is going through..
but remember love i told you much earlier..
if you go into this affair ...
you should be prepared to let go any time..
but sure enough it is easy said than done..
i know very much that when it involves the heart and soul..
it is not like switching off the button of the computer..
if it were computerised..
then one push of the button , it is gone..
but emotion, feeling, heart and soul....
when it involves a feeling of fondness..
i know how difficult it is..
i keep telling her..
when it is gone there is nothing that we can do about it..
it is like something in other 's possession..
there is no way we can get it from them..
unless they are willing to give it to us..
remember girl.. we are the receiving factor and they are the giving factor..
if they do not want to give it to us..
and decide to offer it to some one else...
even how much we want to have it..
it is theirs and they have the full contorl over it..
we cannot go and beg for it..
when it come to the matter of the heart ..
we cannot force it..
it comes naturally...
there is no forcing...
if it is there..
it is also something that is not forced but it comes naturally..
love is something that is precious dear...
if they want to keep it and give it to someone else then...
that is destiny..(itu suratan takdir)..
have faith dear..
if the love is for you ..
it will come back one day..
but if it is not for you then...
no matter what you do and for how long you are going to wait..
well... give yourself time and room...
open up your heart and mind..
just keept consoling and comforting yourself..
at times we really have to console and comfort ourself..
if we dont do that ..
then we are going to break down..
we are actually spoiling our own life and future...
remember dear...if ever it comes back to us then it is a bonus..
then it is fated for us..
if not... then... life must go on..
remember karate kid says..

"sometimes life may failed u.but,u urself can choose.either to wake up and fight or be down.and regretting all ur past life"..

so get up girl...
walk more briskly.... cos if you fail again...
you will have a triple failure...
pull your strength together...
and be the strong girl that you once were...

Letih.. Keletihan...

Letih ...keletihan...
2 perkataan yang bezanya hanyalah akhiran ..an
tp sebenarnya letih dan keletihan membawa makna yang sangat mendalam..
Letih..fizikal
letih..emosi..
letih.. jiwa..
letih fizikal...apabila dapat rehat sdikitpun ianya akan hilang...
letih emosi... melayan dengan cara tersendiri akan hilang..
letih jiwa/soul.. bagaimana nak melayannya..

Keletihan... penat....
Siapakah yang mampu memahami kita..
hanya kita lah yang dapat memahami sesama kita..
jadi kenapa kita harus sangsi di kalangan kita..
kenapa kita benarkan mereka memisahkan kita
kita yang sama yang memahami di antara satu sama lain..
saya tidak menyalahkan kamu..
hanya saya amat kecewa apabila kamu yang seharusnya
memahami kita sesama kita..
juga menunjukkan kesangsian di antara kita..
seharusnya kita tidak patut sangsi antara kita..
tidak apa yang nak direbut di antara kita..
hak kamu tetap hak kamu
sekiaranya hak saya tetap hak saya..
tidak ada apa yang hendak kita rebutkan..
sekirannya kita dapat bergabung tenaga
semestinya kita akan menjadi lebih kuat
dan dah tentunya lebih efektif..
tentunya kemenangan menyebelahi kita...
kita tidakakan jatuh ke dalam perangkap mereka..
tetapi kenapa kah kamu sangat sangsi..
seolahnya kamu memikirkan yang kamu beza dari saya..
tahukah kamu bahawa sebenarnya
di antara kamu dan saya tiada bezanya..
apa yang terjadi kepada saya ..
tidak mustahil akan terhadi kepada kamu juga..
sebab itulah saya ingin membantumu..
tetapi kenapa kah tangan yang saya hulurkan..
kamu tidak mahu sambut dengan baik..
sekiranya satu hari nanti kamu jatuh
dan kamu ingin memberitahu kepadaku ..
aku sedia mendengarnya...
dan sama sama kita bangun dari kejatuhan
yang tidak perlu itu..
sebab mereka dengan cara mereka..
dan kita tetap dengan cara kita...

Updating blog

As of today
i am going to update my blog
with topics of interest to my taste..
personal..
profesional..
and also as a lay man 's opinion..
hopefully ..
ideas... will flow and mood in shape...
this blog has been left abandon for quite sometimes...
well.. not actually left but..
just a bit off track...
and now back in shape with a strong desire to polish my writing skill..
which i actually just discovered..
thanks to you...
maybe it is for this reason..
things happen this way...
(looking at the brighter side of happenings...
as they say... think positive...)