My Endless Love

Dedicated to You...

You....

Some people may call you as Mr Romeo..
but to me i think you are not legible to be called Mr Romeo..
Mr Romeo dies for his Miss Juliet..
but you...

do things which are in contrary to that of Mr Romeo..
so because of that are you entitle for that Mr Romeo????
to me you do not deserve the nickname Mr Romeo..

JUST YESTERDAY
i was your baby..
you told me YOU love me..
you told me i mean everything for you..
you would like to be with me until the end of time..

BUT TODAY
you go off..
you tell me ..
we are not meant for each other..
it was a mistake choosing you as my beloved..
there is no chemistry between us..

AFTER THAT...
you keep quiet..
you do not want to have anything to do with me..
you desserted me..
you isolated yourself from me....
you keep silent as tho we are in a different planet..

DO YOU KNOW..
that when you left me...
i was in misery...
i collapsed...
the whole world is upside down..
i just can't help ..
i keep blaming myself..
i feel that i am hopeless..
i am the most unfortunate ...

AND YOU..
feels so great..
put your head up high..
and start browsing around proudly..
without even care to see how my well being is..

YOU SHOULD REALISE....
that by doing so..
you are letting me down...

WHY...
do you have to do this..
did you give me hope..
if you are doubtful of yourself...

DO YOU THINK..
that by browsing around..
you will be able to find someone ...
that will fulfill your taste..

JUST
bear in mind that..
nobody is perfect..
for a new relationship that you are going to establish..
there will be some missing things..

SOO..

you cannot find 1 Miss Right..
you will have to be the MR Right yourself..
..the pain and the misery that you presented...
may one day be a present for you too..

WELL...
don't be surprise that .. after what YOU have done..
i have establish in myself some sort of immunity...
should you meet me again ..
i will not be the crying baby that you once knew..
i will be a stronger person..

Friend vs lover

Friend
True and sincere friendship knows no bound....
You cannot say you have lost a friend.. If a friendship is capable of ending ..it is because it has never exixted...
True friendship is when silence between 2 people is comfortable..
A best friend is one who can see the pain in your eyes while the rest of the world believes the smile on your face....
Silence ia a true friend who never betrays...
Later...
if ever you encounter each other...
it excites you..
from far you will scream and rush to hug and kiss..
ohhh.. long time no see..
how are you...
bla...bla...bla.. ha...ha...ha...
Ok keep in touch...

Lover
I have found some one new... This is the last contact... goodbye...Nice knowing you.. Tq for your companion.. tq for giving me a sense of happiness...
Breaking off means... do not contact me any more... we have no more relationship... just bear in mind that i have never existed in your world.. and you never existed in my world..
Darling... every minute i miss you.... every minute i want to say i love you... every second i am thinking of you... every minute i want to hold you in my arms... you existed in my dreams.. everytime i dream of you... everywhere i go.. you are by my side...
Time will heal you of your pain... for this moment what you need is time..and not me.. Take care... if we are fated to be together... well see you again one day
(After that silence.. hset off... ym off... email off no response...
Silence untill the end of the world)
Later..if ever you encounnter each other...
you will try to avoid yourself..
from far you will say..
thats my ex....

Sooo.. the morale is
would you rather be a friend or a lover...
if only lovers can be friends
but can friends be lover???
When lover can be friend
and friend can be lover..
Finally when friend lover can be your soulmate..
thats when true and real happiness is in your way..
If ever you can remain as that..
well good luck and happy browsing everyone....

Finally...
Song lyrics which can be used as your guideline in your future relationship..
(From a hubby to his wife)
You are my bread when i am hungry..
You are my shelter in trouble winds..
You are my anchor in life ever..
But most of all you are my best friend....

Deep inside me

Deep inside me..
i want to apologise to my kids..
Mak minta maaf kepada kamu Ikram, Abg Chik dan Muyah..
Muyah kamu lebih memahami kerana kita share the same feelings..
kekadang mak rasa apa yang dilalui oleh kamu bertiga
adalah kelalaian mak...
mak minta maaf banyak2..
muyah..... merely 2 more marks ..
u dont have to go thru all this..
is it because of me??????
tp surely Allah ada perancanganNya kannn...
tp mak bangga kita cepat pick up..
be yourself girl...
let us get up and be strong again...
we were born to be great...
kita tidak dilahirkan untuk gagal..
kita diamanahkan untuk menjadi khalifah di muka bumi ini..
khalifah kepada diri sendiri..
khalifah kepada orang yang dekat dengan kita..
so girl let us both get up and be some one
yang telah diamanahkan olehNya kepada kita...
mak berdoa kita tidak akan lalai lagi..
let us stay focus..
i want to contribute in a way that is within my capacity..
and you girl have such a long way to go...
I am very touch and glad that you might have found your own self...
but girl remember... stay focus...
jangan lalai lagi...
keep your words..
remember life can be as much fun without that crazy love affair...
a love affair that hurts more than hell(quote from John Grader)

Mengenang kembali apa yang terjadi pada Abg Chik and Ikram..
adakah itu kelalaian mak...
Kalau mak lalai ...
maafkan mak...
doakan kekuatan mak...
sementara mak berusaha untuk bangkit...
anak anak mak kena doakan juga kekuatan dan hidayah untuk mak..
mak tidak sempurna..
terlalu banyak mak lalai..
Syukur Abg Chik dapat melalui detk detiknya dengan lebih cemerlang..
he goes through this time...
thank you...
itu saja yang dapat mak ungkapkan..
Kepada Abg Tam...
tahniah kerana melalui saat getir itu dengan penuh kesabaran..
kena maki tiap hari dengan orang yang sangat menyakitkan hatinya..
saat saat yang sukar itu adalah kerana kelalaian mak?????...
maafkan mak...
kekadang mak rasa bersalah kepada kamu semua...
mak tidak sebaik ibu ibu yang lain...
mak akan berusaha untuk menjadi sebaik ibu yang lain..
abg tam . abg chik and muyah kena berdoa mak diampunkan dosa..
dikurangkan dugaan dan terpenting dikuatkan iman...
abg tam ingat tak semasa dalam ting 5 semasa hendak menghadapi spm
mak ingat apa yang dicakapkan abg tam..
mak ikram selalu doa Allah ampunkan dosa mak.. sebab kalau Allah tidak ampunkan dosa mak doa mak tak sampai..
Anak2ku...
marilah kita berusaha untuk menjadi sebaik bapa...

kepada yang lain...
anda lebih mengetahui apa yang terjadi dalam diri anda..
kita sesama insan harus sering ingat mengingati...
jadilah kita insan dan penghuni bumi ni yang baik2
jalankan kewajipan yang telah ditetapkan Allah kepada kita..
doakan kita dikuatkan iman dan dikurang dugaan..
kelebihan yang Allah bagi kita digunakan kepada jalan kebaikan..
jangan lalai lagi dan jangan melalaikan..
berbaik le sesama manusia
dan semoga kita diberikan petunjuk dan
keampunan olehNya...
Segala syak wasangka...
ketepikan...
bersaudarale kita sesama manusia..
semoga kita sejahtera...

Special Education: A teacher's experience

Having an experience of more than 25 years as a teacher
teaching in the main stream...
and only a merely 3 years experience in the special education...
gives me a delimma ..
am i doing the right thing when i teach my special students..

am i giving them what they can chew

or am i choking them with something they cannot digest...

en experience today makes me feel that ..
wow am i legible to teach these special kids
ohh god.... or am i only doing it for myself...
and i doing it for the sake of doing ...
teaching just because i am a teacher...
but actually i am not teaching...
i am only blattering in front of my kids..
ohhh please i dont want to be one of those
doing things just for the sake of doing things...
i want to do my outbest..
i want to contribute to their upbringing...
i seem to see the fault in others..
but maybe actually i am the one doing wrong...
is that soo??????..
what i realise today..
i am not yet considered compatible to teach these special kids..
my experience today...
Teaching english language in the special education..
the topic is a simple sentence construction...
i started off by giving them the rule of sentence construction..
every sentence consist of a subject and a predicate..
a subject is made up of a noun...
and the predicate is made up of a verb...
eg.. she sings...
and maybe a further description so the sentence becomes..
"She sings a song"...
very simple sentence
taught to a group of students who are suppose to be in form 2
goodnesss me... they cant even differentiate between a noun and a verb..
so how am i going to teach them sentence construction
they cant even recognise a verb and a noun
welll. may be i am a bit advance for them..
taking one step backward..
giving a list of words and getting the to sort it out
into words of noun and verb...
ohhhh... though a couple of them could do it..
but still the majority still blurr...
thinking of another step backward..
i question myself...
how am i going to slice it to be thinner pieces or slices...
what next should i do...
getting advise from my superior...

well...
it is not wrong to get inspired and guidance from those more expert...
acknowledging others expertise...
there are pros and copns..
while some may take it profesionally..
others might be a little scepticle...
but which ever way you see it..




it is worth a trial...

emotion

A little emo today
why?????
can't find a reason why...
just that as if there is a big lunp down my throat...
what can it be...
my kids (tho 2 adults age 23 and 19)
are going off to their campus i suppose
cannot help but ..

i will miss them......
i just cannot help it...
luv u and miss u kids...

Mereka dengan cara mereka

Mereka dengan cara mereka
siapakah mereka
tak kiralah siapa mereka tetapi cara kita tetap berbeza
cara mereka berfikir
cara mereka berhujah
cara mereka mentafsir kebebasan,..
semuanya berbeza dengan kita

konon mereka berfikir terkedepan..
konon mereka ini orang yang berfikiran panjang..
memang itu anugerah tuhan kepada mereka..
tapi bukanlah tuhan memberikan kepada kite ilmu..
dengan berilmu kita diberi lebih kewarasan untuk berfikir
dengan itu menambahkan akal kita
bukankah kita boleh dididik untuk berilmu..
justeru tuhan tidak membantu seseorang itu
melainkan dia membantu dirinya sendiri
bagaimana kita boleh membantu diri kita ialah dengan berilmu...

lantas apabila kita memberi pendapat dan berhujah
adakah itu maksud kita ni degil dan keras kepala..
adakah maksud kita ni suka melawan dengan memberi alasan
apakah susah sangat untuk memerima hujah dan alasan..
memberi hujah dan pendapat bukan alasan..
malahan itu adalah mencari kebenaran dan keadilan..
adakah itu melawan namannya..
mereka sepatutya berfikiran lebih terbuka..
dan mengubah cara mereka

manakala kita menyajikan hujah dan pendapat ....
mereka menyajikan apa????
itu cara mereka..
mereka berbangga sangat dengan apa yang mereka miliki..
adakah ianya kekal...
adakah itu harta dan aset yang mereka banggakan..
harta dunia tidak kekal ..
wahai mereka mereka yang berbangga dengan cara mereka begitu..
tak kira siapa mereka..
mereka sangat bangga dengan benda yang tidak kekal..
sebenarnya benda yang tidak kekal begitu tidak menarik perhatian kita..
itu bukan hajat atau hakikat yang kita cari..
hakikat yang kita cari ialah sesuatu yang lebih mendalam dan ikhlas..

hakikat yang kita nak dan cari ialah hakikat yang terdapat hanya di Harrods
walaupun
ianya harta tidak kekal tetapi ianya tetap berharga..
kerana ia eksklusif untuk kite sahaja....
jadi biarlah mereka dengan cara mereka
kita tetap dengan cara kita..