Tears..

People use to say..
tears of joy..
but actually do we cry only when we are happy..
experience shows that it is not easy to shed tears..
either when u are happy..
sad..
frustrated..
sometimes tears are also shed ..
for somebody..

Today... and until now.. there is still a big lump in my throat ..
an experience today by my miserable special kid..
she was so excited to join the school acitivity..
she has to pay a sum of money..
being denied the opportunity..
because the mum or dad did not give her the money..
tears of frustration was shed as early as 7.00 in the morning..
what a pity..
i told myself ..
i would like very much to sponsour her..
just a few bulks..
i actually could feel the frustration in her..
i have gone through it..
and only god knows how difficult it is
to bear such a frsutration..
upon advise from fellow friends...
well let it be..
thats a learning process for her..
at least when she grows up..
she will realise that
not everything that she wants she can get it...
frustration teach us to be more independent..
hopefully..

At times..
tears is something that we cant stop..
it just burst like a broken dam..
or at times it is just like a leaking tap..
non stop but just a little drip bit by bit..
but which type of tears is more devastating..
a tap like or a storm like..
a storm like tears might be an expression of anger or sadness..
i remember storm like tears i shed..
at the death of my nephew..
he was only 30 and his 2 newborns age 4 months..
ohh what a heart breaking to see those innocent babies ..
an orphan without their father..
they will only recognise their father from photos..
hopefyully they will grow up to be strong and good man..

Tears, tears and tears..
can it be replaced by the scientific term h2o ...

zaryati..
only you know what tears to me mean..
tears of heart broken..
tears of frustration..
and maybe tears of rependent..
stepping into the mosque..
on a trip to shah alam
i had a kind of feeling which i cannot put in words..
just that there is a lump in my throat..
and silent tears just drip..
for what reason i have no answer..
i had my zohor and asar jamak..
but that kind of maybe distance..or emptiness..
just dont know
for all i know i feel like crying..

thank you zaryati...
you are a witness for my tears..
when i was down..
you were there to shed off my tears..
and give me the energy to get up again...
without you i would have been just like a sunken ship..
thank you once again..
and the big matter that sunken my ship..
only you know what..
well..it was only temporary...
after that i was up again and
more spirited..
but at times. still need more fuel..

whatever it is friends..
tears need to be shed at times..
just to relieve yourself..
tears are mysterious..
if scientific experiment be done ..
can they get the answer to..
what tears are..
some say...
scientist only can extract the component of h20
and maybe other minerals..
but the 1 thing that cannot be extracted are..
frustration..
beart broken..
sadness..
despair..
desperate..
empathy..
and those that has got to do with heart and soul..
soo.. who can extract these..
it is only the creator..
cos only the creator blows in those into us as human being..
as we should always be humane
and not inhumane..
cos we are created to be human..

Well..
readers..
just point to ponder..
adieus...