Special Education: A teacher's experience

Having an experience of more than 25 years as a teacher
teaching in the main stream...
and only a merely 3 years experience in the special education...
gives me a delimma ..
am i doing the right thing when i teach my special students..

am i giving them what they can chew

or am i choking them with something they cannot digest...

en experience today makes me feel that ..
wow am i legible to teach these special kids
ohh god.... or am i only doing it for myself...
and i doing it for the sake of doing ...
teaching just because i am a teacher...
but actually i am not teaching...
i am only blattering in front of my kids..
ohhh please i dont want to be one of those
doing things just for the sake of doing things...
i want to do my outbest..
i want to contribute to their upbringing...
i seem to see the fault in others..
but maybe actually i am the one doing wrong...
is that soo??????..
what i realise today..
i am not yet considered compatible to teach these special kids..
my experience today...
Teaching english language in the special education..
the topic is a simple sentence construction...
i started off by giving them the rule of sentence construction..
every sentence consist of a subject and a predicate..
a subject is made up of a noun...
and the predicate is made up of a verb...
eg.. she sings...
and maybe a further description so the sentence becomes..
"She sings a song"...
very simple sentence
taught to a group of students who are suppose to be in form 2
goodnesss me... they cant even differentiate between a noun and a verb..
so how am i going to teach them sentence construction
they cant even recognise a verb and a noun
welll. may be i am a bit advance for them..
taking one step backward..
giving a list of words and getting the to sort it out
into words of noun and verb...
ohhhh... though a couple of them could do it..
but still the majority still blurr...
thinking of another step backward..
i question myself...
how am i going to slice it to be thinner pieces or slices...
what next should i do...
getting advise from my superior...

well...
it is not wrong to get inspired and guidance from those more expert...
acknowledging others expertise...
there are pros and copns..
while some may take it profesionally..
others might be a little scepticle...
but which ever way you see it..




it is worth a trial...